You don't get what you deserve.
You get what you take.

-Nemi

Sunday, 30 October 2011

Shut up woman get on my horse.

(Eero, I hate you so much..)

I guess it's time for me to post something again. I don't really have much to say, though it was great that Eero and Milla were here visiting me, even though the weather conditions didn't make me the best hostess ever. After they left I've pretty much just concentrated on the huge load of work I have (luckily I'm also a master in procrastination).

This week I've thought a lot of my life a year ago and yesterday in the Halloween party I couldn't help but think last years party. It's hard to (or actually it would be extremely easy) compare last year and this year, because everything is just so different. I think life here is a bit more mellow than in the States, but it's probably more because the whole environment in here keeps me more relaxed and if I feel anxious I can always go to the beach to calm my nerves. This sounds actually so weird to write right now, since two days ago we decided with Anneli that we're going to need some drama and soon :D

Because of my tooth, I've been on antibiotics this whole week and because of that I was sober in yesterday's party, which hasn't happened too often. It was interesting to think my own relationship with alcohol, because I think we can all agree that as a Finn, my relationship with alcohol is pretty fucked up from the start. I was almost surprised that being sober didn't bother me which made me think even more why I couldn't do that without a "valid" reason. Maybe it's different with house parties, because I think that in a club I would get annoyed quickly, which is why I've chosen to stay couple of nights to stay home when other people have gone out. Also, I was really surprised that drunk people didn't annoy me at all. I just realised that everyone in "our group" are exactly the same sober and drunk, which is why I like that group so much.

If anyone wants to see two really good movies, that will definitely stop you to think for a while, I'd recommend Green Wave and We need to talk about Kevin. Both movies were amazing, though the both made me feel horrible (after Green Wave I basically run from the theatre to cry behind the corner).

Now back to my essay. (If anyone knows good articles etc. on Unasur, I'd be more than happy to receive links)

PS. Why no one told me that The Hellacopters is amazing!

PPS. The feeling when you thought you need to live a week with £8 (and you already have empty fridge), and then you notice that you still have £65 in your Icelandic bank account! I feel like a spy for having three working bank accounts in 3 different countries.

Monday, 24 October 2011

Scotland.

It's grey but fun. Had a good time all around and stuff..
habalahabala
We did a bunch of stuff actually. Visited Stonehaven (which was cool and grey), saw a movie (that was green and depressing), met a lot of nice people and ate. Also we took turns with noora to play solitaire. This I hadn't done before. It's quite different from finland in many ways but still I felt pretty much at home here. Good trip. Lots and lots of things to take with me. Only material one is the whisky though

Cheers, eero

Saturday, 22 October 2011

Look at my horse

Noora, you're the best.

I had some time off from my studies and I finally decided to visit Noora in Scotland for a few days. So, Scotland. The land of deep fryed Mars bars and endless drizzle. I actually experienced rain coming down even when there were no clouds.

I really wish I could stay one more day, just sit on the couch, watch Black Books, play some cards and listen to Lonely Island. Eventually I would maybe even get used to the cars driving on the wrong side of the road. I will come back one day, at least to Noora's graduation.

With lots of love,
xoxo,
Gossip Girl


no, wait,
Milla

Saturday, 15 October 2011

I ain't here to break it, just see how far it will bend.

This week has gone by so fast! I've been running between uni and home quite a few times, but I still feel like there's not much to say about this week. I've learned that the best motivation to study for me is a friend sending a message "I've got wine" (or something else, implying having couple of drinks).

Also, we had our flatwarming party yesterday, which was a great success. A lot of people came and seemed to enjoy the party. The most astonishing part was that this morning we had the whole apartment cleaned up by noon. We carried our weight of bottles out and got some fish and chips, so I can't complain.

In IR we've been scared the whole week, and I feel like I could get really depressed easily right now because of it, but it has also made me to remember why I study this discipline. I want to know. It's great, but so scary to hear information you can't really find on your own.

I had a huge list of things I wanted to write about, but I think that there's not too many people reading this anyway, so probably it doesn't really matter.

I actually feel really good right now about my studies, Aberdeen, friends and life.

PS. I can't wait for Milla and Eero to come!

Sunday, 9 October 2011

Is it possible to get a burn out from one week?

This week has been really interesting, and I've been really looking forward to actually start studying and other activities, so I've been pretty much full-booked every day. I find it quite refreshing, especially because last year I got really frustrated of not really doing anything. I started in the Model UN and I've decided to become even more active in Amnesty. Then I've actually got a grip of studying in the library (it's gorgeous! especially compared to the QML or the libraries of UNM), and all in all I feel extremely motivated to do almost anything (I've also managed to apply for some jobs!). It is actually almost scary how motivated I've been, I've managed to get back somewhat healthy sleeping pattern (which I think won't last too long).

There is just one thing that is threatening to completely trash my system, and it's Spanish. I really want to learn it and become fluent in it, but it is going to take so much of time. The course I'm taking now is designed for people who are going to spend the next academic year in a Spanish-speaking country. Because of this, the grammar and vocabulary are the most difficult ones, so these people won't be having problems during next year. For me, it's just an additional "thingy", which I can luckily withdraw from. Because of being on my Junior Honours, every single course from now on is going to affect on my final grade and because Spanish is not part of my degree, I have the option to skip it. I decided that I'm going to try my best with it, but since IR is going to be extremely demanding, we'll see how long I can keep up with it. I realised that after every Spanish class I'm exhausted and lost all the mental power for the rest of the day. It's actually quite scary and makes me a bit depressed.

Another thing, that actually surprised me a lot, is how much parties etc. there has been and will be. It seems that from when I came to the end of this month there has been at least one party every single Friday and Saturday (sometimes on other days too.). I never thought that it would be a bad thing, because I really enjoy seeing all these people again, but yesterday I found my limit. It was really surprising, because I would have had a party that I was really looking forward to, and I really wanted to go, but then I just suddenly felt like I just wanted to spend the evening with a cup of tea on our sofa. I've been so busy, that I've forgotten to have just some quality time with myself. It was probably one of the first times when I was able to read my body and understand what it wanted. Saying no surely wasn't easy for me, as probably most of you know, especially because I was also invited to see couple of movies, but I'm happy that I stayed home and just enjoyed some tea (okay, I went to have dinner with some friends, but after that I came straight home when they went to cinema). I went with the same theme today also, though I knew I should have been reading Spanish. But I made rye bread from the scratch! I'm going to make a great housewife one day (HAHAHAHAHA).

One thing that might tell something of how weary I've been feeling is that I actually had spend sometime today figuring out which country I'm currently in. For a minute I spent wondering whether I was in the States, in Iceland or in Scotland. It was really confusing.

Next week seems pretty full-booked also, but it'll be fine. Because in a week I'm getting two of my favourite people here, Milla and Eero <3 I just realised that I'm having a presentation on the week they're here, but luckily it's just a political profile of Iceland (I thought that would be the easiest topic for me right now, somehow...).

I don't know if this made any sense, I just felt like I had to put some of my thoughts on writing in order to clear them in my head.